As you look into the mirror, are you satisfied with who you are, with who you have become? Do you even like what you see or are you questioning the person looking back at you.
I would venture to guess that most of you haven’t turned out the way you expected when you were younger. Are you pursuing the dreams you spoke so much about, are you working in a job that had been a lighthouse in the distance as you worked hard to attain?
I for one am nothing like I expected nor am I making a living in a career that I had expected. I originally set out to live in Ventura California and attend Brooks Institute. I had a very specific vision in mind, a desire to work in movie & documentary production and narration. I soon learned that money dictates far too much in life and that I would receive little help from those around me. So I did as so many before me and I gave up on my vision and dream.
Fast forward 25 years; I have since received my College degree in Youth Ministry/Social Services, got married 9 years ago and became the proud father of 4 sons. This is nothing like I had envisioned so many years ago. As a matter of fact for many years I resented my lack of drive and willingness to sacrifice for my dream. Little did I know that God had other plans for me the whole time.
In the years since leaving behind Brooks Institute I have learned many valuable life lessons, made numerous mistakes and the occasional good decision. I managed to pull my life back together and graduate from College before I turned 30 years old. This was an extremely important goal for me and I can always look back on that with pride and a sense of accomplishment.
I got married 9 years ago to the ONLY woman on this earth that could tolerate me and love me the way God had intended. What I am saying is that I am very hard to live with and I try to change each day and fail a lot at it. Meeting this young lady changed my life more than I could put into words and before I knew it we were married and then I blinked and we had 4 sons. Now it hasn’t always been easy, like I said, I am very hard to live with. We have had many ups and downs and heartache along the way. All of this followed by the joy of children and the WORK that comes with it.
Through these years I worked many jobs that I didn’t like and always seemed to be transitioning onto a new job. This was no coincidence, it was me and my lack of commitment when I had a family to provide for. I have a very supportive wife and in-laws and to their credit they challenged me and helped me to see the importance of providing for the BLESSING that God allows me to have every day.
I now sit at this computer and type a story entitled “Satisfied?” and I have to say that I am never satisfied. I always want more! I want more from God, from my relationship with my wife and with my children. I want more from my career which has taken a nice twist into Vlogging, Blogging, Social media and just added Online Tutor. I don’t ever want to be content with today or tomorrow, God has so much for you and me if we only seek to find it.
So I can say confidently that I am not Satisfied and I never will be. If I am living my life according to God’s Word then I will always want that next in my life from the Creator.
Hebrews 12:2 American Standard Version (ASV)
2 looking unto Jesus the [a]author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising shame, and hath sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Ask yourself this before you close out your day. What is your “Satisfied”? Are you looking for more?
What are your answers to these questions? I encourage you to be unsatisfied with life and to always be looking for more. It will not be easy but it is worth it.